First semester I was very friendly, hard-working, shy, sweet, and honest. This semester I had some anxiety, am continuing to talk to my college counselor (doesn't work), I checked out, feel apthetic, I am a total biatch, people are starting to ignore me because of my bad attitude, I greatly dislike the people around me, I'm very happy around a few, I feel like a loner, sad, I think I will end up being alone. Should I put on a fake happy face so my reputatio doesn't go down the drain? The future me will care. I hate peer pressure, I don't belong, I'm apethetic, can not get my school work done, am failing. I wonderful average is going down the drain. I feel like telling everyone to f off. Why am I like this? Pressure. Confidence.
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u don't say what you were like before college, If u have had to leave home u could be feeling homesick and missing your family, friends etc. sometimes college days r portrayed as being brill without the confines of family life rules. I would think if you r a naturally shy person the buzz and close proximity of a lot of people Ur own age could be very overwhelming. try and tell the few that you spend time with just how very bad you r feeling. putting on a happy face will not help if that is not how u feel. If your college councilor cannot help maybe a trip to the doctors is worthwhile make sure you stay in good contact with people you trusted before.